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Thursday, January 28th, 2010
8:56 pm
more in common than you'd think
I was unpacking and putting away product at work yesterday, and out fell a work slip from the manufacturer. It was signed by a "Juan" stating that the product passed inspection. It was written in Spanish so the product was from Mexico, or other Spanish country. I've never seen a foreign factory slip before, and I began to wonder about Juan. I began to think about what I have in common with this stranger. His last name was on the slip as well, although I could not pronounce it or remember it. I too have a name difficult to pronounce. I work for people over me to make a living.

I wondered what Juan's life was like. Did he enjoy his work? Was he young or more experienced? Did he have a wife, a family? What was it like to work in a factory building merchandise for a foreign country? Was he paid fairly for his work? What did he do when he went home for the day? What kind of house did he live in? What did he think of people who live in Canada?

I shared briefly my insights with my co-worker and we went about our business. Still, I feel connected to this stranger. We work together to create a common goal. We both work to build homes for people in Canada. How many other people am I connected to in this world that I have taken for granted?

Thank you to whoever grows and harvests the tea leaves I very much enjoyed this afternoon.
Sunday, January 10th, 2010
7:29 pm
The lining is silver (6)
To begin, a quote from one of my new favorite songs:

'Cause if you close your eyes and listen close
You can hear the chapter close
And it's already bound in better clothes
And you like the way this story goes.

Music has already been very important to me, but these past few years I have been in transition. Perhaps many of us know what it's like to find that treasured musical artist we feel speaks the words from our heart before we even knew we had them. They articulate our thoughts and feelings as we pass through life and each new album flows alongside the very chapter we too are writing. I feel both blessed and priveledged to have had this expereince in my life.

From the age of 17 to 25, that band was Skillet. To this day, I scream along to their lyrics with heartfelt passion and feel like the music and I are sole-mates. I finally was able to see Skillet live this past year, and it was an incredible experience to finally see in person the people who have impacted my life so strongly. I only wish I'd sprung for the VIP backstage pass so I could personally meet John Cooper, the lead singer and main songwriter. It's okay with me that I didn't because I found a large enough crush developing on this man already. Many sentimental feelings arose upon seeing this person who spoke into my life and encouraged me so many times over the past. The only downside was that I loathed their album from 2006 and was not a fan of the most recent one either. They fell off their pedestal and I was left alone to live my life without a soundtrack.

Until now.

I have always been a quiet fan of Relient K. Punk is in my soul and I've had my fair share of mosh pits both at concerts and in my living room. (Good memories Emily & Joelle!) Relient K never seems amazing to me. I had an album or two but stayed faithful to MxPx, Slick Shoes, and Value Pack when the urge for punk came. However, this past summer I saw them live at Cornerstone music festival and immediately feel in love with the charisma of lead singer and songwriter Matt Thiessen. (My husband likes to point out that the cute curly blond hair had something to do with it too.) My husband and I picked up a few more albums and they went from the band on the bottom of my list to the very top. Today I realized they are much more. They are to me my new "Skillet".

As I listen to Matt sing about struggling with depression,

Because on and off, / The clouds have fought /
Their control over the sky / And now I'm sunny with a High /
of 75 / Since You took my heavy heart / And made it light.

or regret,

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

and how to overcome them,

I'd rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can't change now
If I become what I can't accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch

I realize I have found a new musical mentor, a spiritual guide through the speakers in my car, and a cheerleader playing in my head throughout my day.

Relient K has always had fun, upbeat songs, but these recent albums have the same optimistic outlook arising from a deep anguish that makes the hope he has seem unpenetrable from the troubles of this life. Matt Thiessen reminds me that life is passionate and beautiful and wonderful no matter what we going through at the time. Even death is not the end, for God overcomes even that and we allows us to start again:

It's been thirteen days and now I'm dying of thirst
as for the birds of prey I pray that someone else will get
here first / But I am not alone / I'll be alright
Just take these bones and breathe them back to life.

So here I start a new chapter in my life, and indeed I like how the story goes.

(1) "I Don't Need A Soul" -Forget and Not Slow Down
(2) "High Of 75" -MmHmm
(3) "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" -MmHmm
(4) "Forget And Not Slow Down" -Forget and Not Slow Down
(5) "Sahara" -Forget and Not Slow Down
(6) "The Lining is Silver" -The Bird and the Bee Sides

Current Mood: hopeful
Friday, September 11th, 2009
10:11 pm
Ya, so I never update anymore, but I realized I didn't post the big event last month:

Aug 12th...3rd anniversary! Wow..time flies! And it feels great to be more than half-way to 5! =D
Friday, February 6th, 2009
10:40 am
The big 3-0!
This is it, people! The Big 3-0! =) Today I am celebrating by having lunch with my mother, and then a Batman theme party with go-carts with many friends! (and husband, of course! haha) I'm pretty excited! I love birthdays. I already opened gifts from the siblings. I love getting mail, and e-cards, well-wishes! It's so fun! =) At work they gave me cake and a batman bag full of random cool gifts. Now I have a 4-day weekend! Yay!
PS. The turtles send their love! =)

Current Mood: chipper
Thursday, September 25th, 2008
7:26 pm
I think it's time for another 'zine

Current Mood: inspired!
Saturday, September 6th, 2008
1:17 am
I've decided to start submitting things to reader's digest. I figured I know enough jokes and amusing stories to make a few bucks doing that. However, I also read that they actually accept random joe's writing for articles...so now I'm working on a personal short story. But don't get too excited. I've started stories before...
We'll see how this one goes...

Current Mood: ambitious
Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
5:31 am
2 years and counting...
Today is our 2nd anniversary. It's weird that we've been married for 2 years already..and yet, I can't really remember what it was like to not be married. Some days, though, I still feel like I'm playing house. It's pretty cool this marriage thing. I'm often surprised at how "normal" it feels. We share our lives, our space, our thoughts, our vacations. Sometimes it's overwhelmingly wonderful, but most times it's just peacefully pleasant.
We won't actually see each other much today, but will be spending lunch and dinner together, which is a rare pleasure, and tomorrow we were thinking of checking out the Harrison Hot Springs. We'll see.
He bought me much flowers..the first batch he brought to work, and the second batch was waiting at home. I was very surprised. Getting them a day early was due to having a cranky day yesterday, which made it even better...unexpected and great for cheering up!

Current Mood: loved
Tuesday, July 1st, 2008
10:55 pm
the whole confusing thing about guy friends
So here's the weird thing about having best guy buds, as has always been my struggle. One day, they get a girlfriend, and leave you behind. I figured I would stop being bothered by this once I found my own true love, cuz hey, no matter what guy I lose, I've got the greatest man in the world with me forever! But, surprisingly, this is not the case.

When I was single, I figured I missed my guy friends cuz I missed being their "someone special" until someone more special came along...thus I started to convince myself to have crushes on these guy friends, attempting to keep them, but that always followed in confusion and weirdness once I realized I never did see them in a romantic way...I just didn't want to lose them. Of course, getting married solved that dilemma, but as I stated earlier, it doesn't stop me from missing them now. Sure, relationships changed after marriage, and I quite happily let them drift away from the close buds we once were to average everyday friendships which come and go. So why do I still mourn when the "average everyday" goes to "polite catch-up email once a year"? Well, I guess I finally realized that it's the same now when I'm married as when I was single: to put it simply, male or female, I've lost a good friend with whom I have great memories.
It just so happens that the female ones are much easier to keep.

Regardless, I am known to celebrate small things, and mourn small things. On and on it goes, and life is good. So many good memories. And now it's time to move on. Good-bye old friend.

Current Mood: nostalgic
Monday, June 16th, 2008
7:26 pm
First Poetry Slam
So I did it! I finally read a poem, out in the open, to group of strangers (and my husband). I feel confused by the results. It seems a lot of people liked it (Although I did not advance to 2nd round b/c I went on too long). I delivered it well, without a fumble, and almost completely memorized. I guess, maybe, I just figure I could have done better. I would have liked to have been more comfortable with myself, more free-flowing, more attitude. But that's me being too hard on myself again. I just expected that I would be "a natural". That statistic about most people's #1 fear being speaking in public? I'm the exception! I love the attention! Growing up, however, has seemed to dampen the courage and outright confidence I had just 5 years ago. *sigh*
But it's a start. And I finally took that first step to doing something with my writings. And I am encouraged to write more, and practice more, and speak in public more.
And I guess that was the purpose in the beginning anyway.

Current Mood: confused
Sunday, May 4th, 2008
10:59 pm
Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
6:47 pm
If you still read this, wave! =P
Thursday, November 8th, 2007
10:15 pm
short update
I haven't written on this for a few months, so I thought I'd say a line or two. Things are going really well. In the last week and a half, we moved into a nicer apartment, and then bought a 2007 car (Pontiac G5). I am very excited! I also got a raise at work a few weeks back, so that helped pay for the car! God continues to surprise me with how well he takes care of us.
Anyway, I know I haven't many friends left on livejournal. (I passed over to facebook a long time ago.) So that is all for me now.
Catch ya later!

Current Mood: grateful
Sunday, April 8th, 2007
2:31 pm
Happy Easter eveyone!
Monday, March 26th, 2007
4:05 pm
Monday, March 19th, 2007
8:12 pm
Today we used a wedding gift certificate to buy a printer/ scanner / copier and I am so excited! Now I can make more copies of my 'zine (which I've been putting off for over a year) and scan old pictures and even finally print some digital pics & get them into a photo album! I'm having much fun with this little toy. (thanks Dan) =)

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
10:35 pm
MuteMath concert coming up...
My goal is to go to as many rad concerts as possible before we move to Edmonton...
(among other things)

Current Mood: cheerful
Sunday, February 25th, 2007
12:10 am
a poem (it's been a while)
I'm still 3 years old running though a field of overgrown grass
in a foreign country.
The grass is too short for me now. No matter how
I crouch and squat,
still it's not sufficient to hide this world
from me.
I pray for rain enough to grow
a world of daisies tall enough to cover us all
but still I pray in vain as we take our sickles and cut paths
to misery and self-worship
and hate.

Feb 24, 2007
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
8:49 pm
yay for our turtle!
Today, for the first time, I saw my Tucker eat a fish! I'm so excited and proud of him! I know he's eaten 2 fish before beacuse they've disappeared from the tank when we were gone, but we're bought him a bunch of feeder fish and he just didn't seem to know what to do with them most of the time. But, yay! he has figured out how to hunt & eat! =) And I got to witness it! Yay!
Good little Tucker... awww..
tee hee

My turtle provides me with far too much amusement!

Current Mood: enthralled
Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
11:27 pm
First Birthday as a married lady!
Today was my 28th birthday. It as good times! Ryan got me balloons and party hats & noise makers for silly fun and we had some people over to play Wii and Pit (card game) and eat cake & chips. Classic party followed by 5 pin bowling. Flowers, chocolate, lots of phonecalls & gifts, and hanging out with friends. I feel muchly special. Soon is time for bed. ZZzzzz...
Catch ya later!

Current Mood: content
Sunday, February 4th, 2007
8:58 am
My birthday is on Tuesday! If you're in town, stop by and celebrate! =P

My new husband is arranging all the plans for me, and it's great! Quite the refreshing change from planning my own party and making my own cake...man, that sounds so pathetic now that I think about it...but I do enjoy making cake! (and I did make a sweet plaid cake with a friend's help one year...*wink *wink) mmm...cake....my most favorite food in the world.

Last night I dreamed about creme pie....mmm...creme pie!

Current Mood: excited
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